《一次偶然,一起結緣,一同禪修……》       蓎蒿

很開心成為「同志禪聚」的一份子,多月以來與大家同修共享,感覺很喜樂。在寧靜的環境中,身旁圍坐的都是同心同在的友好,盤膝閉目,慢慢地放輕鬆,回到當下,回到自身,回到自心,放低煩憂,同修善業。繼而話話家常,談談佛理,閒適而自在。


Bob’s Voice        —  s

One day a little kid went to his dad and tried to ask him a question, but the dad had a terrible day with his boss and was in a foul mood. So instead of listening to his son, he just screamed at him. Then of course, this poor bloke felt really bad afterwards, so he went to his son’s room and tried to make up with his son. He apologized, gave excuses and blab blab blab. Then he asked his son, what was your question for me? Then the little boy said, “Daddy, how much do you earn in an hour?” He replied, “Twenty dollars.” “Then can I borrow ten dollars, daddy?” Then the bloke thought to himself, “You little cheek! I only earn twenty dollars from my nasty boss and you want half of it! I should have thought about it carefully when I decided to have a child, you know?” Nevertheless, he gave his son ten dollars, cuz he didn’t want to upset his little boy twice in a day. When his son got the ten dollars, he went to his pillow and took out another ten dollars bill, put the two notes together, handed them to his dad and said, “Dad, can I pay you for an hour of your time then.”

I think this is a real story, but of course, all these stories are like meshed potatoes in my bone marrow, so I may be wrong. Anyhow, this is quite a profound story, for me anyway. No one seems to have time anymore. And worst of all, no one seems to even give time for oneself anymore. Do you know that every time you get sick is your body trying to tell you something and you never listen? Meditation is deep listening to the need of yourself, the need of others and the need of this world.

Someone asked Tenzin Palmo once, “Isn’t meditating in a remote cave an escape?” Tenzin Palmo replied something like this, “To me worldly life is an escape. Sometimes when we have a problem, we go to a movie, call a friend, or eat a lot. Meditation means you have to face the problem and your own nature in the raw, and really deal with it directly.”

So for many of us, when we sit down and really listen to the voice deep inside ourselves, we will hear this little voice saying, “My dear, how much do you earn in an hour?”

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《心‧休息》      風鈴

我們的生活大都是向外,例如要面對家人、同學、同事、老闆、客戶等,沒有閒暇回到自己的內心。學習坐禪是一個不錯的方法把心拉回,看看自己的內心真實的世界,多些了解自己。


《無間道》 (註一)        斑比

    「斷斷續續」也許是一個恰當的形容詞去描述我過往接觸禪修的經過。記得十四歲那年參加了七天的八關齋戒,第一次接觸禪修,當時已覺得這是一個可取的修行方法。隨後亦參加過一些禪修基礎班去增加認識。
   
    斷斷續續的,尤如聽信了綠絒的存在,買了地圖,甚至指南針,亦知道自己身處沙漠之中,非前往綠洲不可。無奈地,每次醒覺起步的時間很短,忘記的時間很長……閑坐著……更不用談偶爾被海市蜃樓所迷惑!
   
    數年前,有幸參加了一個為期十天的內觀禪修營,才再一次激發起去修行的志向。然而,數個月後,我的生活發生了大的轉變,去了另一個國家居住,生命再一次的連根拔起。那時雖仍有想修行的心,但是其心念越來越弱,亦越來越受不了因為感情問題所產生的負面情緒……禪修的綠洲漸漸地被拋諸腦後,差點忘得一乾二淨。
   
    經過三年海市蜃樓的生活,我再一次知道我已經迷失,是時候再重新定位了。我返回我的老家,亦返回那個曾經給我無窮啟發的禪修營。我甚至告訴那次主持的導師,我曾經因為生活上的不如意而不能夠面對在禪修中所出現的負面情緒,因此遠離了修行的道。他說禪修是有助我們處理負面情緒的,但是一個人的心力比較薄弱,因此與其他人一起共修,能互相勉勵。

    在我近日的閱讀當中,亦發現有相同的忠告。在喜見長老和向智尊者的《七種覺悟的因素》一書中提及親近善友(善知識)是對治世間苦因的最根本因素。因為善友能提供至高無上的佛法作為食糧,意即她們是一切善法最根本的養料。

    我很幸運能在這個同志禪聚中找到我的善友。她們友善的鼓勵和精進的共修,讓我對修行孕育了信心和歡喜心,讓我失而復得,不再對修行失憶。願斷斷續續的修行能變為無間斷的修行。

    衷心感激能與同路人踏上菩提道,沿途拈花微笑,以心傳心。妳們也來試試看吧!

註:此文標題的「無間道」並非指黑社會影片《無間道》,而是無間斷地通往涅槃道路之意。「無間道」語出《俱舍論》卷二十五:「應知一切道,略說唯有四,謂加行、無間、解脫、勝進道。」無間道指開始斷除所應斷除之煩惱,而不為煩惱所障礙之修行。無間道以斷惑(煩惱之種子)為目的。


《同·自在》   M

自幼因家庭關係而接觸佛教, 想宿世累劫以來, 早已結下極深的佛緣. 小時每經過寺廟總喜歡進去看神像, 站在高大威武的神像面前, 看的目不轉睛, 總為其莊嚴攝服.
第一次去我皈依的道場時, 在清靜的寺院裡, 感到無比的舒暢, 彷彿回到家一樣, 而每聽到寺院的梵唄, 深深被觸動,那旋律好像非常熟悉, 彷彿前世已經聽過般. 看到莊嚴的出家人, 更是肅然起敬, 打從心底生起孺慕之情, 十三歲那年, 參加了兒童佛學夏令營, 透過各種遊戲; 故事等, 接觸到深入淺出的佛法, 算是開始真正對學佛產生興趣, 那時開始學習誦經, 並求知若渴的大量閱讀各種佛教書籍, 我尤其偏愛聖人傳記, 如釋迦牟尼佛傳, 十大弟子傳, 六祖壇經, 影塵回憶錄等, 多年後印象仍非常深刻. 十幾歲時, 參加短期出家, 對出家人的莊嚴行儀, 寺院清靜及專志修行的生活, 十分嚮往.

對於靜坐, 一向在佛教道場中有所接觸, 但心猿意馬, 靜不下來的我, 總沒辦法領略到箇中妙處, 一直到2002在洛杉磯法鼓山的禪修中心參加初級禪訓班, 接受四次有系統有次第的禪修指導, 才算對禪修開始有一點點的概念, 而對禪修產生興趣. 曾體驗嘗試過泰國法身寺(Dhammakaya)的禪修, 對visualization的方法甚為受用. 期間聽聞家人先後參加過葛印卡導師帶領的內觀十日禪修, 身心得到莫大受益, 讓我仰慕這方法, 但由於難於請長假之故, 一直到2005年才終於有機會參加, 在十日boot camp式的每日十多個小時的禪修, 完全禁語, 不許與任何人交談, 不許寫筆記, 看書, 精神完全集中在觀察呼吸和全身的知覺作用上, 在這期間, 看到了自己內心絮絮不休的對話和對外境的貪愛執取, 十日之後, 頓感身心平靜不少.

身為紅塵凡夫, 內心盡是無明習氣, 貪嗔煩惱, 追逐名利聲色, 不論欒、直皆然, 在塵世中, 有幸躬逢這班志同道合之同修, 大家有緣在一起坐坐禪, 吹吹水, 乃人生一大樂事也. 十分珍惜這難得的緣分. 有志的朋友不妨加入我們, 一同尋訪自心淨土, 一同, 自在. 阿彌陀佛.

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